♥ ♥ ♥ 2:48 AM

todae my laogong went back to station to report .. n guess wad .. he come out safe n sound . he is safe le . no problem le .. wont go in le . hahas . reali happie after seeing him comin out . bt dere is a sad tink , a fren go in wif him , cos dey both kena caught together . Bt his fren was kena detained .. hais . he went in for ard 2 yrs at DRC .. hais . reali feel sad . cos he is oso my fren . hais . bt is reali veri lucky tat my hubby is safe le . hees . den ytd we tok to our parents le .. his parent agree n my parent too . so nw is wait for hubby to go n c my dad n discuss more in detailed . we r planing to ROM first .. den we get our own hse first den slowly we will plan our tink better lo . wad happen todae to mi is reali like a dream . hais . reali hope everything will go smoothly for mi .. im nw expecting 6 weeks plus .. my little baby is still so small in my tummy . reali teasure is veri much . my hubby is safe nw i tink is our baby gif him luck de . hees . thx baby !!


anyway thx all my sisters , young mummies n even strangers tat care abt mi recently . reali thx alot . u ppl gif mi strength n hope to contiune to live on . reali thx ..


i tink tats all ba .. anitink more i will update asap . kks . take care .. loves n misses ..
muacks ...



llots of love !!!!
10:23pm

♥ ♥ ♥ 10:14 PM

Would You Be There ???

If I were blue, would you be there for me,And whisper in my ears that's okay,Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,And touch my lips with tender love and careWould you die for me, would you run with me,And never look back..

Would you be there to love, to be with me?Would you swear that your love is always true?Would you say that you'll always be the one,to take my breath away?

Would you be there to love, to be with me?Would you swear that your love is always true?Would you say that you'll always be the one,to take my breath away?

Would you be there

If I'm away, would you still think of me,And wished that you would hold me now,Would you die for me, would you run with me, all the way

Would you be there to love, to be with me?Would you swear that your love is always true?Would you say that you'll always be the one,to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight?Would you swear that your love is always true?Would you say that you'll always be there,to kiss my pain away.

Would you be there,for me.

♥ ♥ ♥ 2:19 AM

hais . had a gd talk wif my hubby ytd . the conclusion tat we haf make is shld be gettin married n gif birth ba . bt the decision is still nt confirm yet too . cos tt is still a lot of problem nt yet solve . nw we onli can walk one step by one step le lo . my hubby sae he will tell his family abt it . bt till nw , nt yet , cos he reali dunno hw to tell dem . so we nw still tinkin of a solution lo . hais . my mother noe abt it le . she nv sae anitink . she jus sae up to us lo .anitink we like lo . bt my father grandma n aunt dey all dunno yet . i reali cannt imagine of their reaction when dey bout abt it . hais . anyways , i will update again , to wad reali i will do lo . cos nw we r still 50 50 .. hais . monday i haf a appointment at 11am .. den c wad happen after i seen the doctor lo .


ps:i oso wan to thx those young mummies tat gif mi support n care abt mi de . n oso my fren n sister . reali thx alot tt u all r by my side at least i noe dey is still ppl concern abt mi . reali veri gladful .. thx .. im real touch . thx a millions !! love u all ppl !!!

♥ ♥ ♥ 5:44 AM

hais . I TINK IM GETTING PRE NATAL DEPRESSION .. hais . reali feeling stress .. hais .. reali dunno wad to do .. hear wad my hubby told mi todae rali broke my heart . hais . i noe he don mean it . wad he sae gt his reason , tat is oso rite . hais . reali .. im stress .

BABY ... CAN TELL MUMMY WAD SHLD MUMMY DO .. MUMMY WAN U VERI MUCH !! BT MUMMY REALI SCARED TAT MUMMY CANT HAF U !! CAN TELL MUMMY WAD TO DO ... MUMMY REALI HAF NO WAY TO GO LE !! SOMETIME MUMMY TINK TAT I CANT HAF U . MUMMY RATHER TO DIE WIF U !! MUMMY HEART REALI VERI PAIN !! REALI !! BABY !! HELP MI !! I REALI GG TO BREAK DOWN LE !! I SCARED I CANT HOLD ON IT ANYMORE LE !! MUMMY NOE TAT I CANT GO WIF U BABY IF MUMMY CANT HAF U !! COS U STILL GT A JIE JIE ! I CANT LEAVE JIE JIE OSO !!

dere is reali alot of problem .. i dunno hw to sae all out too . hais . i will try list out one by one ..

1:hubby gt case
2:family dunno will accept ant
3:fianicial problem
4:dunno if i can manage ant
5:wad if hubby go in wad will happen to mi if i haf the child
6:abort child is cruel , is like killing xuan xuan (my daughter nw) , both is my child
7:scared i wont haf a happe family ..(as tat is wad i wish for so long to haf a happie family)

etc etc .........tats is more , bt dunno hw to sae ....

♥ ♥ ♥ 10:48 PM

reali veri happie tt , after i post my post ytd , alot of ppl read le , even though dey dunno mi , dey oso veri concern abt mi . reali veri glad !! thanx alot ppl !! hais . i still dunno wad to do yet . my hubby ask mi gif him a few days to tink . cos is too sudden le . he ned to tink over abt it abt wad to do . hais . so i waitin for my hubby de ans le lo . hais . reali quite lost nw . hais . feelin ....... scared ?? nervous ?? n sad ?? i oso dunno . hais . feelin kinda paranoid too . hais . can someone teach mi hw to do .. hais . reali lost !! hais . hope tinks will go smoothly for mi ba . hais . ned to pray veri hard nw . hais .. kks . will update asap !! bye .. loves n misses !!! smile always ppl !! take care !!



llots of love !!!!
9:32pm

♥ ♥ ♥ 9:28 PM

hais . on my last post i sae tat my period didnt come rite . hais . todae i use two pregnancy test kit to try .. guess wad !! is POSITIVE .. hais . at tat moment when i noe , i dunno i shld cry or happie , bt i gt the urge to cry . maybe is joy of tears ba . hais . nw mus c wad steps im gg to do le . bt i wont abort baby de . if im gg to gif birth dere is alot of obstacles for mi n hubby to overcome . my parent n his parent . sound like we r still children rite . haas . bt no la . both of us all gt broken marriage , so we tink mus be quite difficult for our parents to accept it again le ba . i onli haf one time broken marriage , bt my hubby gt two times broken marriage le . so hais . we shall go one step by one step le lo . after giving birth to my first child xuan xuan . den tis is the second time i gt pregnant after two yrs . the feeling is so different . haas . like first time havin child like tat . haas . cos maybe too long le ba de gap . haas . feelin so excited tat gg to be a mother again . haas . even though im alreadi a young mummy . hees . reali dunno my feeling rite nw .. excited ?? sad ?? nervous ?? hopeless ?? aimless ?? happy ?? i oso dunno . hais . will go for a further checkup to c hw big is my baby le . the little live in my tummy .(love in my tummy ) kks tink i end it here le ba . shall contiune after i decided everything !! kks . bye .. loves n misses .... smile always ..



llots of love !!!!
7:02am

♥ ♥ ♥ 6:56 AM

haas . todae quite happie . actually veri sad de . cos todae my hubby report back to the station , if unlucky he will cannt come out straight away wait for go court . i cry . heart veri pain . so mi siew ping n joel waited for dem for ard 30 min . n we saw dem comin out , he n ah song . my heart suddenly like let down a big stone frm my heart lo . bt i oso cant happie for long . cos is jus tat dey postphone for another two weeks onli . so tat doesn't mean he will be okies . bt when the moment i saw him come out i reali veri happie . reali love my laogong alot . i will wait n stay by my laogong side no matter wad is the outcome or wd will happen to him . even when he go in i will wait for him de . hais . tis mth my period nt yet come . i reali veri scared . i wish to haf baby again . bt wad if i reali pregnant den my hubby ned to go in .... nt for a few mths bt a few yrs lehs .. at least 7 yrs . wad will happen to mi . i oso dunno . hais . reali hope is jus late for a few days . hope it will come soon . reali scared tat i will get pregnant , bt i somehow hope i will pregnant too . hais . i oso dunno wad i'm tinkin oso . hais . nw wad i can do is jus wait n wait .. few more days it nv come den i will go n check . hais ..... lets jus pray hard lo .. hais ... kks . im workin nw , boring nth to do so come n blog . hais . no pic to upload . wait till my dad upload those pic in the cam to the com den i will update kks . gtg le . kks . smiles always .. love n misses .. bye bye ..




llots of love !!!!
11:11pm

♥ ♥ ♥ 11:04 PM

here is the pics on sheena wedding dinner !!!



mi n apple nu er .. pretty ?? haas ... mi n apple nu er again .. mi wif the big sunglass . haas ..
CONGRATS SHEENA N EDWARD !! OUR BEAUTIFUL BRIDE !mi n apple nu er the pig face !! haas ....


♥ ♥ ♥ 8:18 PM

hahas . nowadays reali veri busy . don even haf the time to use com . so didnt update . hahas . bt my sis belinda will read my blog . den i update lo . hahas . tis few weeks alot of tink happen to mi . haus . actually is nt happen to mi la , is ppl ard mi de . bt it effect mi oso . hais . my laogong happen alot of tink lo . hais . maybe he gg in soon . sobs sobs ......alot of tink la . nt fang bian to write in here . if my laogong go in will be ard 7 yrs lo . hais . deduct until 4 yrs 8 mth ba . i will wait for him no matter wad . i noe is hard n difficult , sure will haf alot of obstacles de . bt i noe i will can overcome slowly de . even though waitin for him will be veri lonely lo . bt at least i noe my sisters all ard mi , will support mi surely de . jus hope my sisters dey all will support mi all the way . den i sure can de . hais . kks . gtg le . gg to other place le . will contiune later on . bye ...





love ......
03.06.07 , 5.10am

♥ ♥ ♥ 5:04 AM