REPLY TO TAG ...

To xiaona:ger i noe wad u mean .. u no ned to repeat so many times. will try my best not to tink so much. don worry i onli vent out on blog.. on the apperance im alright.. n i will try to stay in tat way de. okay . don worry .. loves ..

To xiiaomeiizii: i hope my hubby can c my hardship n effort. n change when he is out. tat is my wish. so tt i can haf a happy family..... reali wish ...

Thx everyone for the concern. really veri appreciate tt alot of ppl came thru my blog will leave tag asking mi to hang on. even thou i dunno dem.

ppl will tink i wrote so much like a essay. bt i reali ned to sae something out of my heart if nt i reali will go CRAZY.. real CRAZY.

Sometimes i really dunno how to express out my feelings n thoughts.... dere is alot of tink i wanna sae. bt dunno how shlb i say. is the fact tt i will wait for my hubby no matter wad. will nt betray him n stay faithful to him. bt dere is alot of obstacles i will not noe in the future. i always tell ppl tt i will wait for him for sure i will hang on.. will stay happy for the sake of him n family n etc............. bt my emotional jus cant listen to mi.previously i haf minor depression. due to my family background. since i was young, since i start to 懂事. bt i get better after knowing my first hubby. everything go smoothly till my girl 1 yrs old. my life start to mess up again. after knowing my tis hubby. tot my life will change for good.. bt not..... tink my minor depression is comin back. i act a brave front infront of everyone, including my closer sister,frens n family. is nt i don wan to be truthful or don wan to disclosed my problems to dem. i noe dey will sae dey don mind to be my listening ear don mind to listen to my woes. dey will sae ask mi to hang on n wait for him to come out... all tis i will do . bt i jus don noe how to sae to dem to make dem understand. becos different ppl haf different kind of view. i often tell myself to be strong don be so negative. bt i jus cant. when im alone i will start to anyhow tink. previous post i sae i cry to slp. tt is the fact.my heart jus feel so empty, so lonely.... my girl is not behaving.. she wan my attention i noe, bt she is reali over. dunno how to describe... bt my family members noe. all of us jus dunno y she will become like. dunno how den we can teach her gd. den for my boy, he is starting to misbehave too. my son resemble his dad alot, its hurts mi even more seeing him. the only happy tinks is tat i c both my children grow up healthy.hais. im haf alot of sorrow tt i dunno how to express. onli can use blog to vent out all my unhappiness. hais .. every moment im missing him like crazy. my heart is like being stab by many times.. the pain is something like tis. hais . okay not to sae much le .. if not tears is comin down le ..

hais ........ 我们说好的幸福呢？正在等待你回来。等你回来实现你的诺言。为了你和这个家，我一定会撑下去的。无论有多难和艰苦，我也一定要做到。我一定不会被动摇的。

i realise dere is two song tat describe my feelings, tat wad i wan to tell my hubby. the song is 约定by周惠&约定by光良.

the part tat i wan to sae to hubby ...

光良的约定：说好的三年不见面，用我们的爱把时间留住。你笑着说这是我们的考验，我们的约定。就这样 三年又过了，我还是回到这个地方。我还记得 我们的约定，你会记得 我们的约定。一辈子幸福的约定，我还记得 我们的约定。我比以前还更爱你了，连那风都笑我了。我想它会告诉你的，我更爱你了。

周惠的约定：累到无力总会想吻你，才能忘了情路艰辛。你我约定难过的往事不许提，也答永远都 不让对方担心，要做快乐的自己 照顾自己。就算某天一个人孤寂。你我约定一争吵很快要喊停。也说好没有秘密彼此很透明。我会好好地爱你，傻傻爱你，不去计较公平不公平。

is so meaningful. exactly the meaning i wanna tell HIM... hais ..

Laogong i Love u!!